Greeting everyone! I wrote this poem from my heart, hoping to share it with those who can relate to the struggles of maintaining healthy relationships. This poem is the one that truly reflects my journey. It’s a journey of learning and growing, of overcoming struggles and obstacles, and of coming out stronger on the other side and while it may have been born from my own experiences and mistakes, it’s my hope that it will resonate with you too. Whether you’ve struggled to maintain healthy relationships, or simply want to learn from my journey, I invite you to join me on this path of growth and discovery. Together, we can find the warmth and connection we all crave.
This poem is related to the blog I wrote The Boy Who Didn’t Know He Was Still In Love and The Boy Who Was Trapped In An Unconditional Love.
(If by chance you come across this, girl with a unique name, I want to make it clear that these words are not meant to hurt or offend. I am just reflecting on my past experiences and acknowledging that there was room for improvement. I hope you have a good life).
Stanzas:
Impressions of an Acquaintance
The Beginnings of a Friendship
The Mystery of Our Friendship
The Risk I Took
Questioning the Depth of Our Friendship
Breaking Barriers: A Friendship Forged Online
A Conversation That Never Was
From Poise to Propinquity
Unheeded Calls
The Weight of Absence
Echoes of Remembrance
Wrapped in Disappointment: A One-Sided Bond
Cherished Friends
Peace Amid Memories
A Friendship Tested: Facing Criticisms with Grace
Weathering the Storms of Silence
Vulnerability Takes Courage
Adrift in a Sea of Emotions
Abandoned in Honesty
Stranded in a Sea of Ungratefulness
Emptiness in the Rain
No More Heartache: Moving Forward
A Journey Through Despair Guided by Love and Light
The Art of Friendship
Impressions of an Acquaintance
Once upon a time, I fell for someone so rare,
My first love, who left an imprint beyond compare.
Her unique name, in her country, so revered,
Our story began, and my heart she ensnared.
As I sat before her, her kindness shone,
When others laughed, she saw the boy’s plight divine.
She empathised with him, though she did not know
The boy’s past actions that had caused this blow.
But then, another time, a classmate caught her beau
In an act of infidelity, and delivered a blow.
Though not close to the couple, she feared for the classmate’s fate,
Hoping the classmate’s boyfriend wouldn’t retaliate.
Through these moments, we were just classmates,
But her empathy and kindness left me amazed.
The Beginnings of a Friendship
Her gentle touch and sweet embrace, so warm,
Etiquette, poised and refined, all her charm,
Her makeup skills, like art on her face,
Her singing voice, that filled the space,
These traits of hers captivated my mind.
She approached me first, and quickly we were friends,
The scent of roses in her perfume, it blends,
Sharing academic notes and aiding each other ’til the very end,
I offered my shoulder, with words of encouragement to send,
Helping her forward on the journey that extends.
Gossip among peers, stories they spun,
Thoughts of a bond, between her and I, begun,
Speculation grew, with each passing day,
Of a connection, a special way.
But she and I, a bond between us lay,
Unseen by the rest, but felt in every way.
The Mystery of Our Friendship
With a sly smile, she’d force me into the lift,
An excuse that I was her saviour, in case the lift went wild,
Our friendship was new, still getting to know each other,
But her antics in the lift, hinted at a newfound wonder
She mirrored my movements, with each gesture so true,
A subtle reflection, that hinted her fondness for me.
As I said goodbye, she asked me to stay,
Her smile so warm, it melted all the way.
She’d sense my boredom and never fail to start a chat,
Her company always welcomed, never any tit-for-tat.
Even when she spoke to others, she’d soon notice my sigh,
And turn to me with a smile, never letting my spirits die.
She gave her time and attention, never letting me go.
She’d make a reason, for us to sit side by side,
And my heart would flutter, with each moment I’d abide.
Though shy I was, her gaze would make me bold,
My feelings for her, still not fully told.
The Risk I Took
As I saw the signs, and thought she felt the same,
I poured my heart out, and confessed my flame.
I knew from the start, our timing was off,
But my heart yearned for her, and I couldn’t help but doff.
Falling in love never came easy to me
We were so different, she and me
Doubts crept in, her indifference taking hold
Her habitual lying added to the doubts, making them bold.
The middle man always there, a beacon of light
Injecting positivity, like a warm summer breeze
Encouraging me to let go, to trust in possibility
And for the first time, I felt my heart soar
In love, I was free, my doubts no more.
In love, I was weightless, elated, and pure delight
Each moment spent, a treasure to hold tight
Falling in love felt like a soaring flight, up above the ground
My heart was filled with a euphoric feeling, profound and profound
Every sensation, like a symphony of emotions, so sweet and pure
My love for her was true, I’d guard and protect her, of that I’m sure.
In the realm of love, I took a leap, so bold,
Confessing my feelings, a story yet untold.
With trembling voice and a heart unsure,
I bared my soul, emotions pure.
I mustered the courage, and spoke from the heart
But her rejection, it came as no surprise,
As I knew deep down, our timing was unwise.
Her response, a spark in the night,
Kindling a change, an inner light.
As days went by, my shy walls fell,
Unleashing a fire, a newfound spell.
Conversations flowed, like a gentle breeze,
A dance of words, with graceful ease.
The fear that held me tight, now released,
A blossoming confidence, a soul unceased.
In the company of girls, once shy and unsure,
I discovered a new confidence that began to pure.
Interactions that once caused my heart to race,
Became moments of ease and comfortable grace.
From a shy boy to an ambivert, I transformed,
Embracing connections with girls, my spirit warmed.
With each interaction, my spirit unfurled,
Unveiling layers, like a precious pearl.
Sensory exchanges, like vibrant hues,
Awakening senses, a kaleidoscope of views.
I embraced the world, both extrovert and intro,
In conversations, finding my inner glow.
No longer confined by shy constraints,
Exploring connections, erasing all restraints.
So, in this journey of love and self-discovery,
I found the essence of being, my true recovery.
With newfound confidence, I embrace the stage,
An ambivert’s tale, an evolving page.
Questioning the Depth of Our Friendship
A change of demeanor, she left me forlorn,
Feeling neglected, like I had been torn.
She changed her tune, since that moment
Before my confession, her care was aloof,
But after my heart spilled, she remained quite removed,
Initially indifferent, her demeanour remained unaltered,
I helped her through, and stood by her side,
But her lack of gratitude, it was like a bitter pill to swallow.
Confessed my love, a risk I took
Our friendship, I feared, would be forsook
But as it turned out, it grew even stronger
As we got to know each other longer.
When we were in class together,
Our friendship felt so true,
But now that we’re apart,
I can’t seem to reach her
It makes me wonder,
Was it just the class that bound us?
Or was our friendship real,
Even when the class is nonplussed?
I don’t want to assume,
But the silence is loud,
I hope we can still be friends,
Even when we’re not in the same crowd.
Breaking Barriers: A Friendship Forged Online
In the days before my confession,
Her words flowed with ease and grace,
Topics beyond just academic race.
But on screen, it was as if a wall stood,
Only academic topics, as if she could.
Her replies were rigid, plain and stark,
Our online talks, a lonely park.
I yearned for the days when we chatted with grace,
Beyond textbooks and academic space.
About life and career, beyond just class.
But now I see, I was just a classmate,
Nothing more, nothing else to contemplate.
But as she saw her my care and concern,
Her responses began to bloom and turn.
Beyond the books, our chats took flight,
A friendship that grew, shining bright.
No longer trapped behind digital glass,
Our friendship now surpasses,
A touch of warmth in every word we say,
Our bond stronger with each passing day.
A Conversation That Never Was
As I offer caring words and advice,
A feeling of closeness, a shared paradise,
Our conversation flows like a stream,
Full of life, a pleasant gleam.
But when I try to converse in other ways,
It becomes a waiting game, for days and days.
It’s like waiting for a downpour of rain,
Days and weeks pass before a reply is gained,
And I wonder if it’s just me or her,
That makes our conversation a blur.
I long for the days when we could talk,
Like we used to do, when we’d take long walks,
And keep the flame of conversation alive.
The sound of the phone, a notification bright,
Brings a rush of excitement, a spark of light,
But it’s the silence that lingers long,
A feeling of yearning, like a forgotten song.
From Poise to Propinquity
Once full of grace and poise,
Her words flowed like a gentle breeze,
Etiquette was her natural choice,
Soft-spoken and delicate like a budding tree
Now as familiar as we’ve become,
Her tone is more direct and less cumbersome
Her language doesn’t beat around the bush,
Cutting through the air like a sharp rush.
Perhaps it was because we were no longer new,
Or maybe just how she’s grown and accrued
As time went on and familiarity grew
‘Yo, you there?’ replaces her careful tone,
Like a sudden gust of wind in a stormy zone
But still, there’s no real rudeness shown,
As our bond has only deepened and grown.
Unheeded Calls
She aided me with academics, that much is true,
But emotional support, always felt askew.
Ignoring my calls, my struggles, my pain.
Adding more weight to my already burdened mind,
Her disregard for me, I could no longer bind
When my heart ached and emotions ran high,
Her support, her comfort, seemed to pass by.
Her words sometimes strayed, causing me pain
My trust shattered, wounds difficult to restrain.
The Weight of Absence
In days gone by, I laughed so free
Teasing her with childish glee
Calling her “Sleepyhead,” making fun of the sound
Of the bubbles that rose from her dreams unbound
For years I’ve dreamt of her, a memory so sweet
Of a friend whose absence I cannot defeat
But as a friend, she was far from discreet
And I’ve felt so lonely, so all alone, with each defeat.
Her absence is a void that I cannot ignore
A heart that aches, a soul that’s sore
The scent of her perfume still lingers in the air
Reminding me of what could have been, but wasn’t there
Every time I reach out, she seems to slip away
A distance that grows with each passing day
She opens my texts, yet chooses to ignore
Leaving me with a longing, feeling forlorn
I become more needy, hoping for a reply
But she shows little empathy, it’s hard to stifle the sigh
It’s like screaming in a crowd, no one to hear,
My words, my pain, falling on deaf ears
Left here drowning in a sea of sadness,
She’s the one who can save me, but all is in vain.
Silent as ever, it’s like a heavy weight,
Dragging me down to this lonely state.
No effort to fill the void or show empathy,
I’m feeling forgotten and lost in apathy.
And though I cherish the memories we share
I can’t help but wish she was here, to show she cares.
A forgotten soul, in this endless night,
Hoping for a glimmer of hope, to bring back the light.
Her actions both good and bad, a complex mix,
The brilliance of her spirit, a sight to fix.
But the balance shifted, to the negative side,
Her immaturity, a surge and dip to guide.
I cherished the good, yet the bad lingered,
Leaving me weighed down, my heart meandered.
Behind closed doors, where thoughts freely roam,
I hear suicidal whispers that chill me to the bone.
Her lack of support, and negative ways,
Added to my sadness, like an endless maze.
Leaving me to yearn for a brighter terrain,
Where light shines and hope is not in vain.
I’ve tried to fix it, time and time again,
But it always seems, our friendship will bend.
Her coming and going, like the ebb and flow,
Leaves me feeling lonely, with no one to know.
Echoes of Remembrance
In the depths of my soul, a yearning resides,
A longing for her, where emotions collide.
I’ve never missed anyone quite like this,
A powerful force, impossible to dismiss.
In a crowded room, amidst the passing faces,
A glimpse of familiarity, a moment that traces.
Is it her image I see, or a shadow from the past?
First love’s spell, forever cast?
A certain look, a strand of her hair,
Ignites a memory, a tale to share.
Each familiar visage, a tender reminder,
Stirs a longing, a flame that won’t wither.
Do I see her in others, or seek her anew?
First love’s imprints, shaping my view.
The subtle resemblance, a captivating sight,
Unleashing emotions, both gentle and bright.
A fragrance, a touch, a reminiscent air,
Evoking the presence of one who was there.
Yearning beckons, she craves my sight,
Knowing my gaze once held her delight.
Her hair, a cascade of silk divine,
Recalling my praise, in memories entwined.
Red attire chosen, a deliberate choice,
A plea for attention, with a whispering voice.
Cloth unironed, with gentle crease,
Whispers desires, seeking release.
In the echoes of her features, so fair,
I’m transported back, to a bond we did share.
Though she left no good memories behind,
I still missed her, a bond that remains undefined.
Oh, the power of missing someone unseen,
A testament to the mysteries of love, it seems.
Perhaps, in the arms of a love that’s true,
With someone who cherishes, and won’t bid adieu,
I may find solace and leave her memory behind,
As new love blossoms, erasing what was once pined.
For in the embrace of a love that won’t fade,
Her absence may dwindle, like a forgotten shade.
Yet, the lessons learned, and the yearning felt,
Shall remain a part of the story my heart once dwelt.
A puzzle of emotions, a friendship once known,
Though not as it seemed, a connection had grown.
With every glimpse, a story unfolds,
Of a friend, now distant, yet never truly cold.
I seek solace in the hope of love’s new reign,
For in the arms of another, new and true,
May the spell be broken, as my heart finds its due.
And as I journey through this winding path,
I yearn for someone, steadfast and true, to cross my way,
Those who bring solace, laughter, and joy each day.
In friendships deep, like roots of a tree,
May comfort and understanding forever be.
With bonds unbreakable, in both heart and mind,
A treasure of companionship, rare to find.
With passionate love’s fiery ardor,
And compassionate love’s gentle fervor.
Together they weave a tapestry divine,
Enriching our lives, like melodies entwined.
In friendships and romance, both fervent and kind,
A symphony of emotions, harmoniously aligned.
Wrapped in Disappointment: A One-Sided Bond
Every year I made sure to recall,
A gift to offer, friendship standing tall,
Not once did I falter, never did I miss
A birthday surprise to make her heart bliss.
A gift wrapped with care, and adorned with ribbons fine,
To bask in the delight that sparkled in her eyes divine.
Even though an invitation was never in sight,
I kept the surprises coming with all my might.
The excitement grew, as the gift was prepared,
Hoping to see, her delight and joy, bared,
But with each passing year, my heart grew heavy,
As my efforts seemed unappreciated, leaving me edgy.
She never seemed to appreciate, the time and care I’d spent.
Still, I continued to send my gifts with care,
A reminder that someone still remembers and cares,
Yet it was clear, she didn’t value our ties,
That though our friendship may have lost its spark.
The last time I sent a gift, I added a letter too,
An attempt to explain what was happening and make things better.
But instead of any reaction, a deafening silence was all I heard,
As if my gift and words were weightless as dust, without a single word.
Each year I remembered, with a gift to share,
But it was clear, she didn’t really care.
Despite feeling unappreciated, my hope endures,
That one day she’ll wear my gift and cherish it at last
And though I tried to keep our friendship alive,
I knew that without effort, it could not survive.
It was time to let go, of a friendship that was not true
And to move on to brighter days, without feeling so blue.
Cherished Friends
Still, I kept the surprises coming,
To other friends who kept me glowing,
With ribbons and bows all strumming,
The thrill of seeing their faces bright,
A pure delight, like stars at night.
Giving gifts to close friends I cherish,
Thoughtful gestures never to perish,
One friend’s lack of care left me feeling in despair,
But other friends showed me how much they cared.
Their joy and appreciation clear,
Like birdsong in the morning near,
Reminding me of true friendships dear,
The ones that shine and never disappear.
Peace Amid Memories
She overthinks, while I do the same,
Our connection lost, like a distant flame.
I cut the ties, and found some peace
But the memories, they still won’t cease.
She doesn’t cared for me, it’s true
And the pain that she put me through
The emotional toll, the burden I bore
A connection deep, a bond so strong.
A Friendship Tested: Facing Criticisms with Grace
Years of friendship, through thick and thin,
I stood by her side, as her confidante and kin,
But when my anger showed, a response I did yearn,
As I pointed out her wrongdoing, she began to turn.
Unwilling to face her faults, she seeks only praise,
Avoiding any criticisms in countless ways,
Her habit of blaming others has become a game she plays.
It’s a trait that’s hard to ignore,
But we know she can do better for sure.
Taking responsibility is the way to grow,
And it’s never too late to start, you know.
Let’s encourage her to see the light,
To make amends and do what’s right.
Acknowledging mistakes is not a shame,
It’s a sign of strength, and we’ll all gain.
Weathering the Storms of Silence
Her words cut deep, like a knife through butter,
My heart heavy, emotions in a clutter.
But I spoke with conviction, for the sake of our bond,
Hoping she’d understand, and our friendship would respond.
The weight I carried, the pain I hid,
Her negative behaviours, took a toll on my soul,
Making me feel heavy, a weight I couldn’t control,
The memories of our past, now clouded with pain,
As the sunshine of our friendship turned to rain.
For a friendship so strong, built on love and respect,
Should weather the storms, and never deflect.
But her reluctance to face her own negation,
And desire only for praise and adoration,
May be the cause of our friendship’s cessation.
I wish she knew, the struggles I faced,
The emotions I buried, the battles I braced,
For a connection so deep, a bond so strong,
Should never end, on a note so wrong.
Reflecting now, I see how much we need,
To tend our emotions with care and heed,
Our friendship can thrive, if we both show,
Wisdom in handling feelings, and let our bond grow.
Vulnerability Takes Courage
Men don’t cry, or so they say
But behind closed doors, tears may stray
For pain and heartbreak often come
And burdens carried, heavy as a ton
Deep inside, their hearts may weep
And tears may flow when the world’s asleep
For hurt and pain can strike us all
And cause our hearts to crumble and fall
But society tells us to be strong
To never show our weakness for too long
For they too, deserve a gentle touch
And a listening ear, to ease their clutch
But oftentimes, their struggles go unseen
As society deems it unfit for men to keen
So let us remember, men can cry
We cry alone, out of touch
And it’s okay to show when we’re not fine
For it takes strength to face the pain
And let the tears fall like gentle rain.
Adrift in a Sea of Emotions
Through the ups and downs of life we share
A bond of friendship, strong and rare
And though my deeds may go unnoticed
Years of loyalty and support gone astray
As though my actions never saw the light of day
But still I stand, strong and true
For in the heart of a true friend
My heart may break, but I’ll push through
For in the end, I know what’s real
And the value of my actions, I’ll always feel
So let her forget and fade away
For my efforts and love will never sway
So let our friendship stand the test of time
For in the end, it’s the memories we’ve made
That will forever stay, and never fade.
In the depths of my despair and pain,
I reached out for her to ease the strain.
As my closest friend, I thought she had empathy,
But her words and deeds,
Made me feel like I was lost at sea.
She didn’t mean to hurt me, I know,
But her negativity and hurtful actions left me adrift,
Like a boat without a paddle or a sail to lift.
And as I reflect on our friendship in retrospect,
Her lies and deceit leave me with a feeling of disrespect.
Abandoned in Honesty
I spoke my heart, with courage in my chest,
Revealing all that’s been weighing me down, I confessed,
I told her everything, straight and true,
But silence was all that met my ears,
No words, no comfort, only fears,
The weight of my emotions, too heavy to bear,
I felt alone, vulnerable, with no one to care.
I spoke of how I felt, unhappy and low,
But she didn’t seem to care or show,
No empathy or concern for my strife,
Left me feeling lost, in this barren world.
I yearned for her understanding, nothing more,
To stop the things that made me feel sore,
But her silence cuts deep, like a knife,
A friendship lost, to the sands of life.
I’ll heal with time, and learn to cope,
Find new ways to cherish and hope,
For empathy and love from within,
To be my guide, and help me win.
Stranded in a Sea of Ungratefulness
I longed for her to offer a listening ear,
To share with compassion and understand each other,
But instead, I was met with anger and frustration.
She blocked me out and left me in isolation.
I know she didn’t mean to cause me pain,
But her actions left me feeling drained.
Though she blocked me out, I still reached out,
Sending a gift on her birthday with a letter of understanding,
Hoping to bridge the gap and clear any doubt.
But her lack of empathy and understanding,
Left me stranded in a sea of emotions,
Waves of hurt crashing against my heart’s devotion.
Despite my constant effort to be a friend so dear,
Her ungrateful behaviour makes everything unclear,
No appreciation for all that I do,
Only unpleasant energy and actions ensue.
Her lies flow like a river,
Deception has become her daily giver.
I thought our friendship was true,
But now it’s clear that it meant nothing to her,
The care and love I gave as a friend,
Seems to have no value in the end.
I sent a birthday surprise gift with joy and delight,
But to her, it meant nothing in her sight,
The lack of gratitude left me feeling broken,
All of our memories now seem unspoken.
I deserve better than this ungrateful energy,
And a friend who values our friendship’s synergy.
It’s time to let go and move on from the past,
To find new connections that will surely last.
Though it’s hard to say goodbye to an old friend,
Sometimes it’s necessary for our hearts to mend.
Emptiness in the Rain
Under the moon’s soft and silvery glow,
I lay in bed, feeling lost and low.
Aching inside, like a shattered glass,
Each night’s solitude, an unsurmountable pass.
Loneliness engulfs me, a suffocating mist,
As I long for a caring touch, an elusive tryst.
Longing for warmth and care,
A heart to listen and to share,
Someone to ease the pain,
And hold me close in the rain.
The emptiness consumes me,
As I long for someone to hold.
But every night I am left alone,
My heart forever cold.
As I close my eyes to sleep,
I wish for love that runs deep,
Someone to be there by my side,
To hold my hand and be my guide.
Amidst the pain and sadness that life may bring,
I question if I deserve such a thing.
But I hold on to faith, in God above,
Trusting in His mercy, His grace and love.
And so I let go, of those who cause me strife,
Knowing that my worth is in a better life.
Embracing the peace that I now explore.
For in seeking connections that fill my soul with glee,
I find the love and joy that sets me free.
No More Heartache: Moving Forward
Memories of the past now fade away,
As I embrace a new and brighter day.
The scent of possibility fills the air,
As I let go of friendships that just aren’t there.
I’ll find new connections, ones that truly last,
And cherish those who give my heart a blast.
Casual love and one-sided friendships are not for me,
I’ll seek the ones that fill my soul with glee.
The past is gone, and I am free,
To live my life just as I want to be.
A love so true, a heart so real,
That’s what I seek, that’s what I feel.
I’ll wait for the best, to come my way,
A love that’s genuine, that’s here to stay.
I won’t rush in, I’ll take my time,
I’ll wait for the one, who’ll make me shine.
No more heartache, no more pain,
I’ll find love that’s genuine, love that won’t wane.
I’ll hold on tight, and never let go,
I’ll cherish the love, that continues to grow.
A love so real, a love so bright,
That’s what I’m searching for, with all my might.
No more illusions, no more lies,
I’ll find love that’s true, love that flies.
And when I do, I’ll never forget,
That love is worth the wait, love is what I get.
A Journey Through Despair Guided by Love and Light
Through the path of darkness and despair,
A faint light glimmered, offering repair,
Until a ray of hope shone bright and clear,
A few close friends who were always near.
They put aside their busy schedules,
And took the time to listen and care,
With empathy and kindness they comforted me,
And made my burden much more bear.
With open arms and open hearts,
They lifted me up and helped me stand,
Their love and support never faltered,
Guiding me through an unknown land.
Their laughter, like a melody sweet,
Lifted my spirits, made my heart skip a beat,
Their words of cheer, like a gentle breeze,
Brought calm and peace to my weary unease.
Through their love and unwavering support,
They showed me that I am not alone,
And even when my own strength was bland,
Their light shone bright, and they led me home.
The Art of Friendship
Sometimes we need a shoulder to lean,
A gentle touch to wipe away the tears unseen,
But if that person cannot give,
Don’t expect too much, just let it live.
Connect with those who have held your hand,
Through the stormy seas and golden sands,
Their love and support, a warm embrace,
Their friendship, a shining light in the darkest place.
Let’s show them gratitude, love, and respect,
Through our actions, our words, and our deeds reflect,
Their unwavering presence in our life,
A beacon of hope, in times of strife.
So choose wisely, who to let in,
Like the fragrance of a flower, let their goodness spin,
For a true friend, with a heart so kind,
Will always be there, even when we’re blind.
Don’t rush to befriend just anyone,
For secrets shared too soon can come undone,
Seek someone with a soul so pure,
Whose love and support will forever endure.
Search for a bond that feels just right,
Like the colours of a rainbow in sight,
And when you find that special friend,
Cherish their companionship, until the very end.
Someone whose heart beats like a drum,
In rhythm with yours, even when you’re numb,
Who listens with care and understands,
A friend whose love and support never disbands.
Expectations can often disappoint,
Like a candle’s flame that may soon disjoint,
Let’s instead appreciate the friends we have,
And cherish their companionship, and all that they give.
The sun will rise, no matter the night,
And through the darkness, I’ve found the light.
I’ve learned that letting go can bring relief,
And that true friends can bring much-needed peace.
I’ll find new love, that’s truly divine,
And never forget this lesson of mine.
